remember when Christmas was so much more exciting? i looked forward to Christmas because i knew I was going to get presents. but now that i'm 22, i don't get presents anymore--well, 3 years ago my parents bought me a car. since then i haven't gotten anything. i expect i won't get any presents for the next....5 years. with all that to say, for me, Christmas has lost it's luster.
i don't dislike Christmas. but... i don't care about presents, christmas trees, christmas lights, christmas dinners, or How the Grinch Stole Christmas, anymore. yeah, it would be nice if it snowed. and i still enjoy "Baby, it's Cold Outside" every time i hear it. but i don't really care about the "good feelings." Feelings are deceiving. Feelings mask reality more than it reveals truth. And sadly, christmas has become a season of "good feelings."
i guess i've grown out of the "good feelings." the superficial things of this season is overpoweringly strong, like old, musky cologne from your grandfather's medicine cabinet. but beneath all that odor, is something sincere, something simple. something that doesn't require christmas lights to stimulate nostalgic feelings of "christmas cheer." something so beautiful that it doesn't need all this pomp and circumstance. i find myself longing for that simplicity to, once again, be the focal point of this season. and that yearning for something sincere has long since sobered my excitement.
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i wouldn't say feelings mask realities so much as distract from them. people forget where the feeling started and chase the wtong things to get it back. i love the feelings of christmas because i'm leaning to revel in the beauty of what it's really about. it's a time to let the madness of all that is God becoming all that is human leave us in awe; it's a time to have your hands and your heart warmed over a cup of coffee with the friend you haven't seen in months; it's a time when the silly dancing game that you bought for your brother brings him so much joy that it awakens that happiness inside you. don't let the hollowness of the commercials kill the joy to be found in the truths that you will feel.
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